So many thoughts tornadoing through my head, storming through my brain, all those worries and every day seems to keep them piling on. And all I can do is sit and wait and hope all will be fine. And as I lie on my bed, ceiling spinning against all the worries, I think that maybe I shouldn't have tried, maybe I shouldn't hve thought I'd deserve anything, that I'd ever be living the life I thought I was living. And maybe the sun left with all my energy and all my good luck and everything else that left me, so I'm lying here and staring, burning heavily inside, an angry fire, burning all my insides, everything that's still there, burning, burning, burning. And all I can do is turn into the ashes of myself and wait for resurrection.